Why I Can't Forget You?

I just set myself up for a heartbreak. Maybe this is my life baby. I
just need to go and kill myself. I ain't worth shit. Everyone knows it. I
hurt myself more and more. When I go on to your profile and stare at you,
I can't believe I do this to myself. I just ugh! God I hate myself.

I want to cut myself. I want to just need to bleed and bleed.
I want to bleed to death. I guess I just have to let go of everything and start
over. Always remember though. I can never forget you baby. I want you and
only you. Always and Forever u mean so much to me but i never mean to u.

U always want me to die. Laying in a hospital getting weaker & weaker each
day. Waiting to go away from life. I have done everything end. People say I
am feeling sorry for myself. If I am, well sorry. Most people have no idea how I
feel. Finally thinking, my life isn't anything important.

I feel like there is a rope tied around my neck and each day it gets tighter and
tighter. It starts choking me until I can't breathe. I am dead in the inside.
No matter what I do, I am never happy. Wait let me say that
again I am never happy unless you are in my life. You are my everything.

I miss everything about us. There is no use of word "us" anymore it is you and
me. I miss it though. I don't think about the bad but I think about all the good
times I had with you.

I think about the feelings. Now it is all gone. It is never going to be the same.
I will get it over one day. I hope that day is soon. Always remember though.
I will always love you.

Her Feelings......

She loves me more than me, but i never tried to feel that because I was a budhu and she too. She tried to take all sorrows but never expressed her own sorrows. First time in my life i got stucked at a point ,to whom choose. She is so good and best , whenever i feel her love i got attracted to her. But how can she kept her feeling for long 12 years?

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Something in my mind strikes.........
Who's feelings are stronger???? Men or Women??
Who's more expressive???? Men or Women??
Who's Love is eternal???? Men or Women??
My mind got alerted by the message tone "Excuse me BOSS!! You have a Text Message!!". Who's this at midnight? Oho. It's the Feeling of a Girl stored within her heart for long 12 years. It's the direct expression of love by a girl with in a Short Message Service(SMS). She might have been tried to put the expression within 160 character but it exceeded.
Her uncontrolled expression given me jerk. What's that? I went through the SMS. It's like this,
"You don't know me, i'm too expressive.When i wanted to express my words,you were not there to listen. So what's wrong with me? Was that mean I'm not expressive? I wanna tell you some thing, I Really Love You. My love towards you hasn't changed as it was before in school days."

After That i saw another SMS regarding her feelings and all about eternity of LOVE. It's like this,
"Love is an internal feelings,it can't be expressed, one need to realize it. It is impossible to forget.It can't be achieved forcefully. I will never force you to love me. Caring and understanding is needed to maintain this. I have always found this within you. I will never mind whatever may be your decision. But always support me in every ways. I will never forget you."

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So here is the answers of my question.

Women's feelings are stronger.

Women are  more expressive.

Women's Love is eternal.